Reminder to self

For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

Do not be anxious about anything  but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving present your requests to God and the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phillipians 4:6-7

 
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21

I'm being challenged at the moment. Alot. Challenged in a way that hurts, tests me, pushes me out of my comfort zone and scares me. I think** God is calling me at the moment to stay where I am. Perhaps that doesn't sound that scary. But it is. This is the longest I've been in one place for probably a year and a half. To stay put is hard. I don't have any answers, what I'm doing, why, how, what, when. Nothing. Maybe I have too many questions and am questioning life too much, looking for answers and trying to keep busy busy busy. Maybe that's what I'm being taught, to slow down a bit. Maybe.

Actually maybe I'm having a bit of a Mary/Martha moment in time. Instead of trying to rush around doing everything I should be just focussing on God, listening to him, learning from him and relying on him instead of myself. Looking back on the last few months at least, there hasn't been that many moments when I've allowed myself to rest. Whenever there is an empty moment in my life I try and fill it with something, whether its to further my career or personal development or keep myself occupied. I haven't stopped very much, and maybe that's what God wants me to do at the moment. Instead of doing, I need to listen, be still so I can hear what He is trying to say instead of trying to catch it as I run past.